Got To Love You

I've missed you so much... I've missed you more than a vampire misses the sun, more than a hungry person misses food, more than Romeo misses Juliette, I've missed you more than I missed breathing the air of happiness, because you are the only reason I am living for... Things that I am saying might be not so romantic but at least I mean them. And believe me, you are the only thing I really mean and care about in this life. I mean how am I supposed to forget you while you are the only thing that is holding me in this life? In this life, all my days were bad, black, gloomy... But the only thing that was keeping me from giving up is the litlle faith that Allah is giving me to survive and live an other day loving you and tasting the real taste of life. 
My love to you is so much bigger than the "Romeo and Juliette story", but at first the thing that was holding me back is your refusal for this pure and honest love, then I remembered those oaths that I have made to myself. The first one was to never give you up no matter what was your answer and that I'll be always there for you, when you'll need someone honest to talk to and someone to keep your secrets, you'll find me and only me, because I love you more than I love myself, more than I love my eyes, more then than I love life! The second one was about marriage, I said that if one day I'll get married to you I'll give one hundred lambs to poor people. I know that it will be expensive, but I'll do anything for you, no matter how expensive it is. 
If you are not the one, then why do I feel so happy when I see you, why do I dream every night about you as my husband, why do I see your face in every man I look at, why do I see our story in every film I watch? Please tell me. 
Please, just for once, quit playing me, and read this message deeply and with an opened heart. 
I won't promise you that it will be the last time that I will write about you because it won't. Moreover, this wasn't the first time, you can see in my notes by yourself and you'll see.. you'll see how honest, pure and big my love is.

                                                                                                                                                  (Written in 2009)

Written by: Nada Mrabet

Revenge..

I look through my window, I see the shinning sun 
It smiles at me and says: "Go have some fun,
Go ahead, get out before time away will run". 

I look through my window, I see a beautiful flower
Usually hen I look at her, she gives me more power
But this time she stole it from me, what a cheating flower! 

I look through my window, looking for a doctor for my broken heart 
Missing the feeling of being crazely loved
Being tortured by the fact of being lovelorned. 

I stay by the window waiting for his call
I stay up late waiting for him in the hall
I stay up late till the moon and the stars fall. 

You disrespected me and treated me like a whore
I even got more respect from a freaking dog
I loved you so much, but you were my biggest shock. 

But one day, you'll be the dog and I'll be the ruler 
You'll be the weak and I'll be the wrestler 
You'll be the victim and I'll be the shooter. 

I don't know if that day through the door will come in 
I don't know if that day will fit
But I certainly know that I'll be too tired to enjoy it.. 


Written by: Nada Mrabet

Candles

Let me tell you about the candles of my life 
When my life was five point five 
When I used to feel like the world is mine 
And when all my stars used to shine. 

Let me tell you about the perfect world that I used to live in 
When life taught me to never give in 
When all my stories started to begin 
And when I started to fit in. 
**** 
They were four candles actually 
I used to fight for them bravely 
Trying to keep them lighted hardly 
Enjoing loving them crazely. 

But as I always say:"they were too good to be true" 
They always turn off, there is nothing new 
I just can't take care of them, even they are few 
That's something I used to know and will always do. 

With the death of my candles comes the birth of other ones 
Their birth always reminds me that I was in their place once 
Then they start toturing me like an old grudgy sun 
They torture me for one reason, only for fun. 

But what can I say? What can I do? 
It's always the same, nothing is new 
It happens only for me and some few 
We will never taste happiness and that's the only thing we knew 
**** 
But with a look at your lieing eyes 
I forget myself and all of your freaking lies 
But deep in my heart, I hated you and all your guys 
Especially when you steal hearts like stolen cheese by mice. 

Finally, after all these years 
I started to forget all about you and my fears 
I've learned how to whipe my own tears 
And every time they talk about you I close my ears. 


Written by: Nada Mrabet

To Be Continued

Am I blind? 


I don't know


I have the bless of sight


But I feel like I can't see. 


I have been hanted by the doubts' crow


It has been hanting me for the whole night


And it refuses to release me. 


It says that it has something to show


Show me things that can't be right


Then it will let me free.


At first, I said NO


I told it that I am going to fight


If it won't say what kind of things it's going to show me.


It said that it is something about my growth


Something that is not fine


About something I have to be or I won't be.


By the time it started to show


We were running out of time


And it didn't tell me...

Written by: Nada Mrabet

Gamin!

C'était une guerre
Mais j'ai eu rien à faire.


Le sentiment que j'ai eu était très fort
Plutôt, plus fort que la mort. 


Un sentiment qui a hanté mon cœur
Et m'a donné rien que le malheur. 


Tu as trahi tous les lois
Et tu as violé tous mes droits. 


Mon droit d'être une femme
Et d'avoir une âme. 


D'abord, il a été rien qu'une aventure
Mais après, ton amour a devenu une blessure.


Ton amour m'a fait sentir l'humilité 
Dis moi, comment peux-je l'oublier? 

Au début, j'ai été fière
De tomber amoureuse avec un homme cher.


Mais, ce n'est pas vraie
Même après toutes ces années.


J'ai suffisamment d'aventure
Et mon amour doit mourir.


C'est vrai que tu as les yeux verts et les cheveux châtains 
Mais croyez moi, tu n'est qu'un gamin!

Ecrit par: Nada Mrabet

Love

Love is a waste of time
Falling in love is a crime
Love's star should never shine.

I've been in that situation
I got nothing but humiliation
And love, I will never accept your invitation.

Love is a jail
Love is hell
Run away when your heart rings its bell.

I should of listened 
But I got my lesson
Love is a lesion.

When they say love, I say who?
I say yeah, yeah I love you too
Besides, I am going to be "Nada the new"!

P.S.: Don't fall in love 
You better be lovelorn
Than being just too low. 


Written by: Nada Mrabet